Meaningful quotes/ lyrics

"If someone wants to be a part of your life,

they'll make the effort to be in it."

"I will love you forever, forever and always.

 Please just remember even if i am not there, 

I'll always love you forever and always. "

"We stop checking for monsters under our bed when we realised they were inside us."

"To say, 'I love you',

  Is to choose,

  Is to endure, 

  Is to meet a person's twists

  And have no desire to untie them"

"Having courage is hard no matter how daring you are."

"Everything is a matter of mindset,

You choose to have positive vibes or negative ones."

"Do not compare with others' life, work hard to make up for what you are missing."

"Live life the way you want." 

"Jealousy is an ugly thing."

"Have faith in your own decisions.

If it goes wrong, learn from it and come back stronger."

"The weak is not those who fail,

 but is those who fail and do not stand up."

"What are you afraid of?

everyone is human just like you,

if they can do it, so can you." 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reflection

Who is that girl i see

Staring straight back at me?

Exactly, who am i?
Do i really know me?
What am i like? Personality?
I can't explain apparently.
Seems like i don't seem to know me either.
Random mood swings,
Overboard jokes,
Violence.
I seem to always do this.
But i dislike it when people do these to me.
Setting double standards for people and myself.
Treat others how you want them to treat you.
Simple sentence,
Can easily be understood.
But do i truly understand the deep meaning behind it.
Everyone can easily explain it,
but can everyone do it? Not so easy.
Seems as though my mind is stuck at the age of 8?
Childish mentality,
Sense of insecurity,
Selfish.
I thought that circumstances have made me grow.
Yes, though it forces me to mature in a way or another,
my brain cannot take the overload.
I can't control myself at times,
hurting people around me in the process.
Is that why everyone leaves me sooner or later?
I haven't really grow actually, haven't i?
Forcing myself to act like one, doesn't mean i am one.
I still  have a long way to mature.
There is a need for me control my emotions and thoughts,
Instead of blurting out everything.
I find that i keep the wrong things to myself,
and blurt out every other things that is hurtful.
Like a porcupine,
My needles are always out, protecting myself from harm,
however, i am actually inflicting more damage on myself.
I am not that happy little girl that accept everyone,
I judge people and listen to rumours.
I am not that nice little girl that never bear a grudge,
I remember clearly what people do to me
I am not that innocent little girl who doesn't have a clue in anything,
I overthink and I gossip.
Maybe my character was just like that,
being two faced.
I am not sure who am i.
I don't know how to grow up.
I never understood how to stop hurting people around.
I take my loved ones for granted.
I know i have to stop my rubbish attitude,
But how to? Will someone guide me?
Maybe this shall be my new year resolution.
Hopefully I can be a better person in this better year.
All is just about the mind.
I need to be stronger mentally.
I need to stop feeling inferior.
I need to embrace what is in front of me now.
I need to stop looking back in the past.
I need to stop being jealous.
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this list is never ending... But hopefully the list would get shorter.
And so i can be happier.

Negativity

Too many problems piling up on me and right now i can't breathe.

Who to rant to if everyone is feeling the same? 

No one is listening to my pain. To my worries.

But they don't know how much pain am i in.

No one apparently really gets it,

Even if they are how close to me.

Building up walls because i am starting to get sick of all this.

This world that is filled with 

Lies,

Politics,

Secrets.

I am sick of playing the guessing game.

I always felt that no one truly understood me.

Maybe people would think that is my usual mood swings and all,

but they do not know that it's not.

Growing up is taking a toll on me.

How i wished we could rewind time back to the old carefree days.

When we are young, we wished to freedom,

so we rebel

When we are adults, we wished for more money,

so we neglect our family

When we are old, we wished for time to rewind,

but it cannot happen.

Unless we can travel faster than the speed of light and rotate around earth,

or so that's what some say.

I can't convince myself that these problems are brought upon by myself,

though i can say it really well.

Truly actions speaks louder than words.

The list of problems is never ending, 

Ranging from 

School,

Work,

Family,

Friendship,

Relationship,

And the list go on.

Yes i know that i should just look things in a different perspective.

However, when you are in the middle of all this,

It's hard to do so.

I am trying. 

But my emotions take over me completely at times.

My mind would always be thinking,

Do they like me?

How should i make them like me?

Are they friend or foe?

How should i continue this friendship?

Are they keeping anything from me?

All this are exactly what that make me so insecure.

How to stop my brain from running wild?

Why am i so obsessed with people's opinion of me?

Why do i have to compare my life with others?

I need to put a stop to all this.

In order to live a happier life.

I would try doing it.

I need to do it.

I have to do it.

It may be tough but it is what i gotta do.