Too many problems piling up on me and right now i can't breathe.
Who to rant to if everyone is feeling the same?
No one is listening to my pain. To my worries.
But they don't know how much pain am i in.
No one apparently really gets it,
Even if they are how close to me.
Building up walls because i am starting to get sick of all this.
This world that is filled with
Lies,
Politics,
Secrets.
I am sick of playing the guessing game.
I always felt that no one truly understood me.
Maybe people would think that is my usual mood swings and all,
but they do not know that it's not.
Growing up is taking a toll on me.
How i wished we could rewind time back to the old carefree days.
When we are young, we wished to freedom,
so we rebel
When we are adults, we wished for more money,
so we neglect our family
When we are old, we wished for time to rewind,
but it cannot happen.
Unless we can travel faster than the speed of light and rotate around earth,
or so that's what some say.
I can't convince myself that these problems are brought upon by myself,
though i can say it really well.
Truly actions speaks louder than words.
The list of problems is never ending,
Ranging from
School,
Work,
Family,
Friendship,
Relationship,
And the list go on.
Yes i know that i should just look things in a different perspective.
However, when you are in the middle of all this,
It's hard to do so.
I am trying.
But my emotions take over me completely at times.
My mind would always be thinking,
Do they like me?
How should i make them like me?
Are they friend or foe?
How should i continue this friendship?
Are they keeping anything from me?
All this are exactly what that make me so insecure.
How to stop my brain from running wild?
Why am i so obsessed with people's opinion of me?
Why do i have to compare my life with others?
I need to put a stop to all this.
In order to live a happier life.
I would try doing it.
I need to do it.
I have to do it.
It may be tough but it is what i gotta do.
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